![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
cats_shaped's journalLog in Create a LiveJournal Account Learn more
| You are viewing cats_shaped's journal Log in Create a LiveJournal Account Learn more |
|
|||||||
 |
|
|
|||||
|
I hold you in my hands, a little animal  This evening my mom comes into my bro's room and asks whose jeans she's found. they were not mine nor my bro's ones (and even not my dad's...). so we decide to put them on - and they fit me perfectly. Then I put my hand into the back pocket and... take out a used condom (thanks god it'd gone through our washing machine:)! wow! I couldn't believe my eyes! we still don't know whose jeans they are. God, that is so weird!!!! ah! the funniest thing that's happened to me for last weeks. Current mood:  curious.Current music: LP - My December. My bro's grumbling that he wants to sleep (it's 1.25 am here) - so I'll cut the story short. Guessing that I'm the only person who can help ME, I made up my mind to do some self-therapy. We'll see the results. For now - here you are - the most positive impression of the last several weeks. Such a funny movie!!! 
Current mood:  calm.Current music: Travis - Re-offender. Been a while since I wrote last time. Nothing great happened that deserved any attention and besides I'm getting more and more tired, so now I sleep at nights instead of sitting in the I-net. I even have no strength for writing, it's bad... Again, in everyday things I forget about some important points of my life as creativity, self-expression and self-education. I don't want to lose myself at all, I want to pour out all my emotions, ideas and thoughts. But others try to make me think that my manager's work is the best vocation of my life. Heh. PS: saw a local rock-star today and got his autograph - my first one, really. Hurray for fans! Current mood: confused.Current music: Placebo - I know. Finally it's with me!  Tomorrow there'll be costume birthday party at a frien's of mine. I'm so anxious about it - such fun! all the detail - later! Need to sleep... Current mood: curious.Current music: Athlete. What worried me last days? Many things. But now it feels like there's complete vacuum in and outside me. And all I think is if I'm really egoistic. Perhaps. Usually my thoughts are concentrated on my needs. Is that too bad? I just wait for a bit of harmony and for that I need: - to get second higher education - to change my job - to forget about some people - and not to forget about some other people - new items for make-up - new hair-cut - to go to gym. I lost my inspiration and some joy of life. I'm scared that I'm getting too common, angry and dumb. So if you have any ideas how to avoid it - please, you're welcome! Current mood:  cranky.Current music: Athlete. I watched "The motorcyclist's diaries" yesterday. An impressive movie and a great person. I understood that after all my life has no meaning - I can't change the world because even HE couldn't. It's sad to feel yourself as a part of some system or machine. It's awful to realize that you have less power or strength than the others. And all your problems seem to be so minuscule. Hm... PS: "Madagascar" is the funniest thing I've seen recently. Enjoyed it very much!!! Current mood:  gloomy.Current music: Romantic & sad bullshit. I feel tired and sleepy. Hiding one's feelings is a tiresome thing, indeed. We went to see Conny in the hospital. He's stuck in "the black stripe" of his life - his parents called him to say that the flat'd been robbed and his PC had gone. All his work that has been done for years now is lost - his PC is the essence of the life for him. Such a pity! I also have no more strength to be someone's entertainer, so I avoid companies and walk slowly home. I need peace, rest and sleep. KC's album on CD will be tomorrow in these cats_shaped hands - hurray! Current mood:  exhausted.Current music: Morcheeba - The Sea. So many things happened during the last week that I even wanted to quit my job, cry a lot and die. Paranoid my reaction was, as usual, and shock - that was my state. I had too many problems at work. But nothing more about that... Now I feel better. I miss my dog and I know that it was my bro who buried it. Rita came to him in dreams for a couple of times and I can't help him. I miss my Placebo & Keane stage - when I was obsessed with these bands and wrote new pieces of my novel everyday. I miss my Cam, now that she's all about her boyfriend. I miss our mutual being "a muse" and I like her Igor a lot. He's a nice guy. Plays the guitar and dreams of being a rock star. And who doesn't? I'm all in doubt - I want to stay myself but I know that people won't be eager to mix with this ME. Then I'm ready to try to be sexy hot and cool - but it's not really me. I am dull, absent minded, slow reacting and touchy. I re-found old Limp Bizkit for myself though I hate their new songs. The last band that shook my mind was Radiohead with their old compositions... Oh! And I adore Calogero now - very smooth, beautiful music and his perfect voice!!! Go, France! Allez! Conny's in hospital. I'm in love. I want to share every sweet and bitter moment with him but I guess there's no hope to find a place for me in the heart of his... And I still don't know what I am... Kisses Cats Current mood:  crushed.Current music: Placebo - B-sides. A rock concert is a wonderful thing! Today I've been at one, it's called "Rocking". There were several good bands from our region (some of new metal and some of punk) and I really enjoyed the show! Wow! Ou-hhhha! We jumped and we shouted out the lyrics. I lost my voice. And the first half of the day was extremely bad. So much sh** happened at work that I feared I wouldn't go through that. And first of all, it 's been raining all the day. So at the end of the day I got wet but extremely happy! Hurray! Cats Current mood:  crazy.Current music: noise in my head. Today I watched "Master & Commander" for a 100th time. I adore this movie. Russel Crowe had never been my fave actor till I saw the picture. And the pair - Crowe and Bettany is so amazing! This movie is very truthful and I could say - even authentic. The pity is that good pictures rarely get enough feedback from the audience. Heh... There'll be no sequel, I fear... Current mood: crappy.Current music: Backstreetboys - Nevergone. |
|||||||
|
|
|
|||||